Demonic Angel

kejadian aneh…

pan lagi di bus mo pulang… trus di jalan, ngantuk, ga ada kerjaan selain nungguin nih bus nyampe tujuan, adalah gw berdoa dalam hati…

agak ketiduran, tapi visionnya aneh..

pas  Salam Maria, tiba2 gw melihat wanita with pale face and cold eyes, slit something before my eyes, like I was chanting something to devote her and she absorbs the power within every word I said. The next vision, the same lady with different dress, now in white, no longer in dark grey, caress a cutting tool which I consider not a knife or any daily tool we might ever see in daily life… Freak!

In the end, I opened my eyes, still praying and wide awakaned. I don’t know what the hell was that. Was something feeling torture about me praying at that moment, and tried to interrupt me?

Odd.

Lagi ga enak badan. Semua rasanya jd ga enak.

Berak.

Iya.

Susah berak juga…

Ada2 aja sih… jam makan siang malah creambath… -.-’

tamatlah kelingking kiri gw.. biru2. mbak2nya kejam jg mijetnya.. asal mencet… kurang ajar…

Feeling uncertain lately, unease, and very uncomfortable… This affects me in everything I do and I wish that I could vanish from the world just for a while…

Seek for self existance within me.

Only me. Not me attached with other person. Not me attached by other matter. That’s not me.

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I don’t know what the heck I’m talking about.

Self emptiness.

Feeling lonely among the crowd.

Feeling vain with billion achievements.

Feeling useless upon assignments.

Figuring one self. In fact a huge matter.

Something that I long abandoned.

For seeking other things less mattered.

For me writing this pointless.

For me still asking why I keep on writing.

For me still not answering.

For reader who might think it’s something serious.

For me it’s something to laugh upon.

Forever.

Foroforo…

..itu

boroboro…

Argh! Gak jelas.

Evrything is blur… so let sing "Blurry Eyes"!!!

Ini speaker gw mati, dan sepanjang hari dengerin lagu "hanya 1 kata.." astaga… dia nyanyi panjang2 liriknya masih diitung satu kata???

Apa kata Pak JS Badudu..???? badudududududdudu…

*makin ga jelas*

It’s a prove that human mind is free. So free.

Even free enough to judge on others.

And assume as one’s like.

Slowly killing every passion left.

And leave a corpse rotten.

While soul wandering…

..then vanished without a trace.

….

Bentar lagi gw skizopren akut!

diliputi rasa kantuk dan khayalan alam bebantalan… pdhal gw ga puasa… ada apa ini?

jangan banyak tanya…

yayayayaya…

oya, vote di petisi sudah ada 120an lho… senangnya… keep on growing!!! ^__^

so far, ga ada double post lagi siy… ^__^

skrg lg buat proyek baru sambil nunggu feedback proyek lama besok pagi… wadudududuh neh…

just feel the urge to say… MetroMini85 KEPARAAAAATTT….!!!!

this post is really random ne…? Nice! Kepala gw juga lagi random… mencar2 isinya..

padahal kmrn gw merasa cukup optimum bekerja lho… mpe terik matahari menyengat…

GILA! MP3 PLAYAH GW TAW DIRI ABIES!!!

Tiba2 PakKOM muncul di kantor… Pak Komisaris. Lagi ga pasang playlist joniz yg nangte2… lg psg Dir en Grey, untungnya Ain’t Afraid to Die… pas ngobrol, lagunya hampir abies.. gw pikir, kl loncat ke Repetition of Hatred kan tewas di tempat bukaaannn…??? ternyata dia psg lagu Gackt feat. Yoshiki - Leeca lho… *blink-blink*

Image "Angel anak baik" terselamatkan…. phew!!! ^__^

binun mo ngapain… mo diajarin apah anak2 busuk ini…???

au.

kemaren ijin sehari… skrg kerjaan numpuk… parah…

lembur..bur..bur… bubur… mpe jualan bubur….

Friday, September 7th 2007

Pulang tenggo… 5 teng lgs go.. tetep aja br dpt angkot jam 6 lewat, penuh bgt lg… ky pepes… -.-’ ujan… ah, lengkap sudah penderitaan… Blanja di Gramed PIM, ketemuan ma Ika, nunggu dedekna’ a’a, pulang dhe… ngubek2 ARASHI. Jam 2 gw menyerahkan diri pada dunia mimpi…

Saturday, September 8th 2007

Bangun pagi… siangnya cabut buru2 ke UNAS. Kampus macam apa thu???? Nyempil2… susah nyarinya paaaannn…!!! Nyulik Ika mpe malem di sana… Sempet ntn apa aja ya..? Hmm… let’s review..

Tadaima >> Kewl but the sound system yg sember-ber-ber…

Kyuuto >> Ada apa dengan Intan…??? Besoknya cerita kl doi collapse abis manggung…

Chick’en Katsu >> Comical as usual… Ika terhibur dgn penampilan chang-chi-men kali ini… (kacang-kuaci-permen)

Abis itu pulang lah.. tewas!

Sunday, September 9th 2007

The busiest day of the end of the week… Dedekkuw baru pulang pagi2, dan kemudian gw culik ke misa kawinan adeknya Mba Angel.

Phanus & Yenny >> SELAMAT YAAAAA!!! ^__^ Gw jd ikut bahagya…

Sunter jauh bet yah bang… oia… MBA ANGEL PAKE ROK!!! Astagaaaa….!!! She looks VERY normal… ^__^

Makan dulu di Beppu PI-EX. Nyulik Rosa & Hennjin ke IBS Kemang. Sempet ntn…

Kyuuto >> She’s getting better… Nice performance, better than the last one, walo gw GA NGERTI SAMA SEKALI itu lagu apaan.. kecuali yg Shiina RIngo krn ntn di MS suatu saat yg lampaw…

Shuriken >> rusuh as usual… Agak elated krn bwin Namamekeshiki nantoka, Agitated Screams of Maggots, & Repetition of Hatred.. Lainnya lagu ndiri n lagu lama… C, Child’s Prey, Umbrella… Ga sempet foto2 krn adekkuw blg mo ambil yg visualnya bgs… (pd akhirnya gw ambil bbrp foto kyna) Oya… BIG NOTES : itu drummer sll di awal maen tenaganya berlebihan malah beatnya kecepetan… -.-’ chape dheee… makin ke belakang makin bagus maennya… tapi lagu2 baru yg dibawain kulikannya rodo aneh…

Melody Maker >> keren! Biar gw gak ngerti itu lagu apaan, tapi gw menikmati permainan musik mereka… Rapih… ^__^ Saat inilah foto2 pun berjalan…

Jetto >> awalnya kewl… makin ke belakang makin bubar jalan… berisik doang, lagunya ga berbentuk… kl udah pernah dgrin lagu2 L’arc mungkin bisa dibantuin imajinasi mrk nyanyi apaan, tp kl awam mah… itu rusuh ga jelas.. kacaw! Untung dah bubar… -.-’

Wasabi >> tenaga dan emosi terkuras habis nahan impulsivitas di Jetto… cuma tahan beberapa lagu dan ambil beberapa foto, akhirnya gw pulang sblm acara selesay…

Senangnya lagih… ketemu Farchu, Intan, Anin yg sudah lama tidak bersua… Terutama Anin, yg sudah lama ga ngerjain skripsi… ^__^ Janjian untuk karaoke lagu2 Joniz… Astaga… Mw ku taro mana thu mukanya Kyo…???

Today… tewas… beneran. Basiannya ga enak bgt… Amit2…

hmrph… mata gw perih dah bbrp hari blkgan.. kbykan liat layar monitor… jereng lama2..

astagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…!!!!

mata gw.. beler…

weekend ini… banyak sekali acara… bisa tewas gw senennya… maafkan karyawanmu Bu Mena… m(_._)m

angel mo pengsan… lelah sekali rasanya padahal cuma duduk dan menatap komputer selama 8 jam/hari…

nyanyi lagi aaaaah….

lagu horror…

"ngeeeeerrriii… ngeeeerrriii… things they’ve changed my friend.. oooh…." (Carrie - Europe)

lagu tanpa nada…

"i don’t want to talk about it… E minor… it’s a shame i’ve got to live without you… E minor.." (High Enough - Damn Yankees)

lagu diare…

"if i die tomorrow, i’ll be alright because i believe.. that after we’re gone… cepirit carries on…" (Spirit Carries On - Dream Theater)

I’m feeling to sing X Japan’s WEEKEND all along…

Friday, August 31th 2007

A day out from the office. I’ve travelling one place to another with my boss and my co-worker. We shopped for office tools and many things else. VERY tired instead. I got headache while shopping and have tot ake medicine to survive… Afterwork… with some friends went to watch Hatsu Koi, an indepence movie from Japan, at Japan Foundation. The movie was about gay phenomenon in Japan. Very simple yet meaningful and so real. Afterward, we watched the talk show and felt amused with the language barrier between us and the Japanese. Later on, we decided to have a meal on Pizza Hut! We laughed along the way, and it might be the first time I really spending time with friends from this click. I was a happy person at that moment. ^__^ Yui, Erlin, Irwan, Denny, and… um… Hennjin!!!! My fave girl… ^__^

Saturday, September 1st 2007

Nothing really happens but my Mom with furious face for the whole day. Maybe she thinks I came home drunk last night. Yeah.. I wish I could!!! So, we’re having a mass for my grandparents… Amen. Got many calls to attend several different occassions. KMPA PLGI, my friend’s wed, and Morester. I chose the last one because I could leave house after midnight…

Sunday, September 2nd 2007

After midnight… I met Bonty, Niki, Rosi, Nico, Paten, and elsemore!!! Not as much as I’ve expected but really a pleasant moment. I drink! Yes! I finally drink!!! ^__^ I got drunk a bit, but evrything still under control. Sashi!!! Met him finally, and got home at 6. Church calls at 8, and sleeping in between. Then 12 go to Wijaya Karnaval!!! ^__^ It seems like Private Joker had performed before I was there. Damn!!! That’s one huge regret of coming late… Hot air… really not helping things better. Meet cyber friends finally, saw Hotaru and Ichigo, and some others which I can’t recall… (Sorry!)

Okay! The show… the bands… What I could recall in details might be some bands that give their best on stage…

Amakusa >> won my heart in this event with X Japan’s Weekend, Silent Jealousy, and Crucify My Love. They sang another X Japan’s song in the mid, but I can’t remember… The drummer play the Yoshiki role for sure; drum and keyboard…

Raison D’etre >> I thought it was DeG’s cover, but it was L’arc instead… Crap. Shit, but they’re good at their own songs. They also sang LINK, and something with…"kisetsu nananana~" I can’t name the title, i know the music, plus Remioromen’s Konayuki… Yey..

Chik’enKatsu >> Good jokes on Pegasus Fantasy with Naik Delman and dangdud’an… On Ready Steady Go also… not kewl with Remioromen’s Konayuki… The drummer.. what’s wrong with him??? The vocalist managed to cover the pleasure of the show for us though… with Miyabi’s pin on his tie.

Shuriken >> hmm… Dir en Grey’s OLD songs, Luna Sea’s Crazy About You, and 2 of their own songs. What should I say… they won 2nd place at heart. Guitar’s sound… awful. Good play, awful sound.

Some crap events, headbanging! How many times I’ve complained about that. You may headbang or spin around, but DON’T TOUCH ME! I stood there even before you move your feet to the beat, so BACK OFF AND BANG YOUR FUCKING HEAD SOMEWHERE ELSE!!! And the thing I hate second best from it… THEY DON’T KNOW THE SONG!!! They often smashed their head on the wrong beat!!!! Me want to say…"May I chop your head off?"

Else… I’m so happy that I could spent it with my brother… Really… It was a special thing to have spent my great time with him. ^__^ Thanx bro!!!