Demonic Angel

Browsing di rumah cyber-nya KMPA Pelangi…

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Hmm… Masa2 itu…

Melanglang ke antah berantah dengan kawan-kawan seperjuangan…

Bertahan hidup di tengah belantara dengan persediaan air yang menipis di sepanjang pantai 32 km…

Memupuk harap pada tanah air…

..dan kami pun menjadi sebuah keluarga tanpa ikatan darah..

berharap kemarin… hari ini… dan esok…

mengukir sejarah.

Semper Fidelis, KMPA Pelangi!!!

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[andai ku dapat berbagi lebih dari sekedar gambar... hahahahahahaha!!!]

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Parah!!! Hari ini pulang dari kantro jam 11.30 p.m. … Yak! Tepat! Almost midnight… Kejam…. Hiks…. Lama2 gw jadi workaholic… emang udah kayana…

Now listening to… Dream Theater - Systematic Chaos
Love the Prophets of War…

Udah dapat kopian Despair in The Womb (Dir en Grey official DVD for [a knot]) dari jaman kapan.. tapi gak pernah berhasil nonton dengan seksama… akhirnya cuma sekejap2 aja nontonnya…

Slight review… Agitated nantoka keren on live, tapi pemainnya mematung… seperti liat still pictures… cuma jarinya doang gerak2… hahahahahaha!!! Lagu yg sulit memang…. Kalo Conceived Sorrow, agak kecewa dengan vokal Kyo yang nadanya sempat melenceng dari jalan yang ditetapkan Tuhan… Kemudian Ryojoku no Ame… hmm… what can I say about this song? Still great… Lebih senang liat live-nya… gw butuh liat live Repetition of Hatred…

Sepertinya gaji gw dah di transfer… rasanya gw butuh kemeja baru… selama ini minjem baju kerja nyokap… gerah juga gw jadi ondel2, karena nyokpa suka size yg besar… hmrph… bukannya apa2, tapi gw jadi terlihat bak pemain lawak aja…

Hadoeh… tidur gak ya? Siang ini akan banyak tamu… repot…

Boleh berbagi kesenangan??? Ku cinta sekali dengan makhluk ini.. dia terlihat angelic dengan pose seperti berikut…

sayangnya… begitu dia bangun, then your nightmare was just begun…

Welcome to Dir en Grey World!!!

FINALLY!!!

My brother downloaded it… Thank you!!!

I’m listening to it right now…

WOW!!!

Belakangan ini gw dikelilingi dengan berita duka… dari keluarga gw, rekan gw, rekan nyokap, rekan adek, sodara jauh, pokoknya ada aja, bertubi2 datang selama sebulan ini…

Just now, Mom share her experiance not long ago when my Grandma passed away… "ternyata, biar udah disiapkan kaya apapun, mau pikir bahwa mungkin itu jalan terbaik daripada dia hidup sengsara, sakit2an… tetep ya, sulit banget untuk melepaskan begitu aja…"

Hmm… it’s true… though not in the exact same situation, we could never predict how we would be able to face the worst… Related to death, entah kenapa, sepertinya ada yg sedang mengisyaratkan gw sst dengan kejadian duka bertubi2 ini… hmrph… I’ll live my life to the fullest then… I’ll try every chance, I’ll experience challenge… Life is not easy, it never was…

Hmm… turut berduka cita untuk…

* Keluarga Mama, yg ditinggal Oma..
* Niki Radian dan keluarga yg ditinggal Bapaknya…
* Ikachu, my best friend yg ditinggal Oomnya…
* Keluarga Mama (lagi), yg ditinggal Opa Syl Pantou…
* Umat yg ditinggalkan Romo Yoseph…

and those whom I forgot…

May the souls rest in peace with our prayers…

May we continue to live till we we’re gathered again for the end…

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I was so excited to have this post lately on their official website.

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Notes :

* The original version was in Japanese on their official website. Hasn’t been translated yet by them officially.

* I had my limits on Japanese. If anyone could give me a better translation, I would gladly post it here and give you credit for it.

* Any correction would be highly appreciated.

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艶かしき安息、躊躇いに微笑み
[namamekashiki ansoku, tamerai ni hohoemi]

>> Kyo

We we’re talking about what limit should we take with the song, we should
do what was never been done before. Whatever to make it simpler would be
interesting.

>> Kaoru

The story behind
the unplugged version is to border it to the main part of the recording in the
beginning, then it was decided so. At first, on the first phase, the three patterns
of piano, orchestra, and acoustic guitar. Everyone was thinking of their part
along the way, and found some odd parts on guitar and orchestra, while the piano
fits well. So we decided to put only the piano.

>> Shinya

Even though
there’s no drum part in it, I watched the recording process. Following the
process how it was made up to the result is interesting. This would be fine, I
think.

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>> Mine
Sure did Shinya followed the whole process. He wrote the song!!!
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CONCEIVED SORROW

>> Kaoru

In the beginning, when we did the
orchestra version, honestly there’s no ping thing there. Then why not try
adding some sound into it, then we added them, and here’s the result.

>> Die

Here’s the orchestra version we made, I
could say. We usually wanted more growing atmosphere on the song, but the finishing
resulted a good meaning.

>> Kyo

It’ll be interesting to
have it more simple. Actually, the feeling of the original sound was different
at all. The song was in an easier form than it was to be plain.

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>> Mine
Kyo really got the same taste with me. Sometimes simple music create greater atmosphere…
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THE
PLEDGE

[coming soon]

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I’m so happy I could do this!

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They told me to come at 8.30 a.m. sharp with addition, "Don’t be late…" and they made me wait for an half hour.

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Legend :

>> [the interviewer part]
++ [my part]
"italic font" [what's inside my head]
(words in brackets) [action within the conversation]

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We greet each other, shake hands and then he told me to sit.
>> So… you… you speak English?
++ Ah.
"English! Not Japanese! So stop your Japanese short response!"
>> Okay… Clara Angeline.. (looking at my registration form) What… how do I call you? (in a very awkward accent of English… combine it with Javanese dialect.)
++ Angel.
"It was written on the paper! Do you read?"
>> Oh, Angel… Okay, Angel…
"Stop calling my name and start with a question please…"

..and he started to ask me questions.
>>So please introduce yourself in English…
"E? Cliche…"
++ (I introduce myself… I won’t tell crap about this.)

..about Psychology…
>> You are taking… your study in university.. your university is… Atma Jaya..
"Of course in my uni! Gosh! Things couldn’t get worse than this…"
>> why did you take psychology as your.. your…
++ major…
>> yes, your major in university.. in Atma Jaya..
"when I thought it couldn’t get worse… It’s the same question when I was about to enter college!!! Crap question!"
++ Well, I think at that time, human is quite common is some aspects, but in the other hand human is also unique as an individual, so I tried to find out more about human with its ambiguousness…
>> Oh… okay…
"That’s it???"
>> Okay, then, do you have interest in psychology before.. when you’re in high school?
"E?"
++ Um, psychology wasn’t that popular when I was in high school. I didn’t know what psychology is at that time.. But when I entered university and know more about psychology, I fitted well with the field.

…about my hobbies…
>> So you’re like… um.. (looking in my paper) outdoor activities.. Tell me about your hobbies…
"You mentioned that!!!"
++ That… outdoor activities…
>> Yes, how… what did you do? I mean, do you climbing..
"such bad grammar in English…"
>>…I mean not like climbing stairs..
"Of course!!! What kind a person who have hobby of climbing stairs???"
>> I mean mountain, you climb the mountain or…
++ Yes, like wall climbing, mountain..
>> Yes, you do that?
++ yes, I do that…
>> What else..? Like…
(I cut in)
++ Rafting..
>> You do rafting?
"I just told you I DID!!!"
++ Ah.
"I want to scratch my face…"
>> So, you do that often?
++ Well, I d those activities quite often when I was in high school and college.

..about my interest in arts…
>> Your other hobby is… music… you sing?
"E?"
++ No. I don’t sing.. but I enjoy listening music.
>> Do you confident enough to sing?
"E? You’ll force me to drink and sit with Japanese in karaoke then? Thanks, but NO THANKS!!!"
++ No. I’m not confident enough to sing.
>> But you can sing…
"What do you want exactly???"
++ I can sing, but I don’t sing.
>> So you’re not confident enough to sing?
"I want to kill you… really… I’m dying to kill you RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT!!!"
(He’s looking at my paper)
>>And, … (he thinks hard) painting…?
++ Yes, I do paint for my own pleasure.
>> How about reading?
"Reading is not an art.. literature is… asshole…"
++ Yes… I like reading…
"What college graduate didn’t like to read? They’re FORCED to read!"
>> What… what…
"I have to cut in…"
++ Well, recently I have interest in Japanese culture, so I read books about Japanese culture…
>> Well, it’s kinda match with our company. We have Japanese program, so you may be could.. we could give you that.. if you’re good enough.. interested…
"What are you trying to say???"
>> So you speak Japanese?
++ A little.
>> (he repeats the Japanese program again…)

..about everything else. He speaks English  with Indonesian grammar and context. It was agitating.

…about training experiences…
>> (asked about training people or teaching in front of public)
++ (I told him stories about teaching medical first aid act and land navigation)
>> What.. where did you do that? I mean, for what cause you teach medical? Is it like.. um… Pramuka..
"Lousy question."
++ Pecinta alam.
>> Oh, so you’re in pecinta alam…
"That’s why I love outdoor. Could you read between the lines???"

Cut the crap and get into the three lowest points.

First, he was explaining about job description. He wanted to speak Indonesian so bad, so he had to instructed it…
>> Okay, we talk no English… we talk Indonesian from now.. starting from now…
"Aaaaarrrrggghhhh!!!! So silly!!!!"
He was underestimated the high school graduates as our trainee. I hate that part. He was what in Japanese called saite; the lowest, worst, creature on earth.

Second, he was explaining about the future project of English class, and he said my English is lumayan… not bad…
"Not baaaaaadddd???? I was advanced if compared with you!!! You didn’t even know the advance and proper vocabulary in English! Jerk!"

Third, he asked about my cross necklace. He was worried that it’ll occur further problems with people there at work place. What the hell was that??? He’s also a Catholic.
>> Kalo di Atma Jaya mungkin itu kebangga tersendiri sebagai identitas kita. Tapi kalo di masyarakat lain…
I think he was asking me to put off the necklace. Over my dead body. I’ll tattooed my forehead with cross if he explicitly ask me to do that.
++ Saya rasa mereka begitu karena di komunitas mereka tidak ada yg punya identitas seperti kita, jadi mereka tidak kenal. Tapi selama ini saya tidak punya masalah dalam berinteraksi dengan orang2 yang akhirnya membuat gap gara2 saya non-muslim. Hubungan kami tetap baik2…
"I’ll deal with that, and it was none of your concern. Let it be my own burden."
Hey, I have my faith and you have to deal with this stubborn of mine. I’ll show you that religion wasn’t the main identity of a person.

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Conclusion…

He was really a person who never out from the box. The world could be cruel to you, but it doesn’t mean you have to lessen what you’ve got before. I won’t hide my identity as a Christian. It’s not pride, but I think that shouldn’t be a matter for anyone.
He easily underestimate anyone below him. Cut the fucking crap old man! I’ll make those trainee even better than you! He disrespect people with potential. He implicitly believe that people have limited capacity… You’re the limited one with your boundaries. Poor human…

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It makes me think twice about working with a person like he is. The job description was interesting, the distance work place matter wasn’t an issue, but he became the great issue for me.

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I love you Grandma… Always do…

Please guide and watch me from above, and hope you’re fine there with Grandpa… Send my best regard for him…

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One day, I got a phone call for a job interview… so I attended the appointment. The whole process was really agitating.

That day, I was on work, so I have to excuse myself to my boss to attend the interview. She let me go then. I have to argue with tukang ojek (I don’t know what else to call that man with that particular job…) to have me in that place in 15 minutes, then that day I have my first day period, and I haven’t eat since morning. I was such in a bad day…

So I came, fill the application for, got few tests, and then came the worst part. I wrote withing the application letter that I am able to read and listen Japanese quite well. I do! I really do… So they gave me Japanese Language Test.

They gave me a paper which was written in Japanese and I have to translate it… The main problem is, the article was flooded with Kanji!!!! I can’t read advance Kanji for God sake!!! What the heck were they trying to put me into???

I was laughing when I read the test since I can’t recognize more than 10 kanji there!!! I only understand some parts with familiar kanji like hataraku 働く(it took em 10 minutes to remember what the kanji stands for…), wakaru　分かる, hitobito人々, kongetsu　今月, and some more…

Finally I only finished 2 sentences.. and laugh at the rest.

I was thinking, if the interview that day would be held in Japanese, then I would shake the hand of the interviewer and leave the room…

Apparently I was so lucky. We did the interview most in English. She asked if I know Japanese, I said I do, a little. It was emphasized on ‘a little’!

Arrrgghhh!!! いたいのため、そんなこととしたのかい？！

What I fright the most was if they really asked things in daily Japanese which I could understand, and I would spontaneously answered not in the appropriate Japanese. I’m learning Kansai dialect by now, so I tried to speak more that way than the proper Japanese. Kansai dialect was considered as the uncommon language in Japan, even not all Japanese people understand or fond of it, since it was more rude than the common Kantou dialect.

すげ怖いと気がしたんやろう！　しかし、関西弁や俺にはおもろいと思うさかい。

Now, downloading Dir en Grey newest video… Hahahahaha!!! I’m so happy…

I just received Tak Matsumoto Group’s CD along with Dir en grey’s single, AIn’t Afraid to Die, yesterday. It brighten up my day… But I was too tired to be excited, so I fell asleep before listen to it entirely.

This morning, I listen to TMG’s CD, and it was rocking my morn! I don’t like the way Eric Martin sing the song, I like Jack Blade’s vocal better… but Matsumoto-san really tricky with his guitar! I really love his play!

Anyone, who’d notice great guitar sound, please check on TMG and B’z’s recordings… Inaba Koshi also has a great voice! You can’t forget their pieces…

Today, I got another called asked me to do another interview for the job I was looking for. I was so relieve… I hope I could get the job… Wish me luck!

Anyway, the current company I was working temporarily now, attempt to extended my contract up to August. I was so confuse… I didn’t match the tasks very well, but I really like the work’s atmosphere… May God leads me to the best…

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I was quite well surprised… Let’s take a look at the following pictures…

Shinya with a gothic girl… Apparently I saw here several times with Yoshiki on FVT and in WARP Magazine… She’s Yoshiki’s VIOLET UK bassist… Her name is Mandi.

And this is Mandi, Shinya, and Twink… Twink is a model.

Wow! Shinya ain’t a fraid with women… Hahahahahaha! I found these pics on the girls’ MySpace pages. I wonder did they got pics with another DeG members or just Shinya who attended Yoshiki’s party…

Yes, it was on Yoshiki’s party… I don’t know what occasion the party was held for, but I think he just like party and crowd, since he was a lonely old man. Yes, I’m talking about Yoshiki… Not Shinya…

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For not being assertive… hmrph… Ya sudahlah yaaaaa….

Anyway… gw mendengarkan Slipknot.. akhernya… ya ampun… Dir en Grey sekali musiknya yaaa… and guess what? I think I like it…

I CAN’T BELIEVE MYSELF!!!

Tapi musiknya mang beda… Drummernya main baik sekali ya… katanya dia mantan drummer jazz genre… unbelievable… keren… I like it… the drum thing….

Sekarang juuga lagi dengerin Loudness.. atas dasar rasa ingin tahu, maka ku beli original CD-nya dengan harapan tak akan menyesal menghabiskan 99000 on it…

ternyata….

KEREN ABIES!!! malah ku sdg menabung tuk beli yg The Best of… 2 CD, original, dan harganya 285-an… keparat…

lagi jd pengacara neh… pengangguran banyak acara… najies!

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