Demonic Angel

Jaman sudah edan!!!

Kemaren belanja buku n CD lumayan banyak… ngabis2in duit.. konsumtif… butuh mengembalikan power… hahahahahaha!!!

Books I bought …
- Out [novel; org jpg yg ngarang]
- Peace Maker : Shinsengumi Imon 5 [komik; end]
- Zetman 5 [komik; ilegal]
- Getsumeiki nantoka : Sayonara Shinsengumi 1 [komik; new!]
- Trinity Blood [komik]
- What Machiavelli Woul Do? [wacana; ttg filosofi si gila Machiavelli...]

padahal gw masih ada buku yg menunggu gw kelarin bacanya…
- Mossad [novel; intel Israel]

and I bought CDs…
- Glay : Love is Beautiful [Rock; dah punya mp3, tapi merasa bersalah jika tidak beli original...]
- Marilyn Manson : The best of [Rock; sumpah, lagunya lebih cemen dari Dir en Grey...]
- Beatles : 1 [Rock; lucu juga lagu2 jadul..]

on the way CDs… [lagi order di yessasia.com]
- Tak Matsumoto Group : TMG 1 [Rock; gitaris Jepang merekrut musisi barat... Eric martin dkk...]
- Dir en Grey : Ain’t Afraid To Die Single [Rock; lagu single ini ballad, tapi langka krn ga masuk album manapun...]

Arrrggghhh!!!! ku pusing….

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I got some official MySpace links to the original musicians… I’m so happy that I could consult to them privately at anytime.. There are still some musicians that haven’t listed in my friends list, since their last login was days or weeks ago.. I’m waiting patiently…

So far, the musicians I consider that are for REAL are, Yoshiki (ex. X Japan), Violet UK, Dream Theater, Mike Portnoy, Jordan Rudess, Derek Sherinian, Dir en Grey, and Nightwish (bubar). I’m so convinced that they’re the real ones because their official website linked to those MS page…

John Myung was listed there also, but I still didn’t know whether he is the real one… I’m trying to figure it out with my way… *evilSMILE* I’m hopin he was the real one because I really fancy this guy than anyone. You could fake everything on cyber, so I have to be careful not to hope much on it.

The same thing also happened with Die and Toshiya from Dir en Grey, their MS were so convincing that they’re for real, but I still need further proves since their pics were easy to find from fans’ personal collections…

Wish me luck!

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If you want to reach my MS page, be sure that your PC could read Japanese words, and then contact me. (I’ll help you reach to my page)

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Hahahaha!!! Self-promoting feature…

AKhirnya kelar juga magangnya… awalannya rada semangat karena hari terakhir kerja.. tapi waktu menjelang akhir kok tiba2 berasa.. ‘it’s going to end?’ shinjirarenai…

Tapiiii…. pagi ini bangun dengan senang… karena liat jam… ternyata jam 10!!!! gw bisa lagi bangun jam 10!!!! hahahahahaha…

Suddenly, a call came… hahahahaha!!! ada yg kangen juga dari kantor… hihihihihihi…

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A lil bit kesal dengan seorang teman… dia memang ada masalah dengan komunikasi lisan, jadi dia mencurahkan isi hatinya lewat tulisan di milis… entah kenapa ya, respon gw akan tulisan dia memang pedas kalo dirasa di posisi dia, tapi sebenarnya gw sedang berusaha untuk membuat dia berhenti komplain… Masalah yg dia ajukan dah sliweran lama di depan dia, dan masih komplain hal yang sama… berulang2 kali tanpa progress yg menunjukkan perbaikan… trus mau apaaaaa??? Saya bingung…

Sekarang dia memaki2 by milis… bagesss… begitulah orang yg tergerak by emotion… gw sekarang lagi tahan nafas nih untuk tidak impulsif… dah sarjana… coba tunjukkan sedikit perbedaan antara sarjana and sarjana-to-be…. phew…

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Masalah datang dan pergi.. saat 1 kelar, datang yg lain.. nice… can i live in peace for once… when i die, it’d be for once and for all… hmrph… bukan itu juga yg dimaxud…

bosan yay!

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Gw dah kehabisan akal dan kreativitas…

mari kita buka kunci jawaban dari tulisan sampah gw in the previous entry!!!!

#1 ditulis karen gw bosan amat sangat dengan menunggu slide demi slide dijelaskan di sebuah training… kalo gw ngerti materinya sih okay bebeh… sayangnya gw KAGA NGERTI sama sekali kenapa CAR dan ATMR harus diitung di atas 8%, dan portofolio tidak boleh terpusat pada satu segi bisnis perbankan, atau adaptasi IRB untuk menghitung minimum capital at risk sekian persen pada tahun ke sekian… it’s like I want to scream, "SPEAK MY LANGUAGE PLEASE!"

#2 ditulis saat seorang instruktur melotot ke gw waktu kertas flipchart runtuh… seakan2 itu salah gw, padahal mang flipchartnya keparat, sekeparat mas2 yg pasang tuh kertas… so, it was based on humiliation… hahahahahahaha!!! bener2 ga ada maksud seksual dengan si trigger… yaiks!!!

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Oh my Dieeeee!!!!

It’s been a LOOOOOONNNGGGG while since my last post… phew!

So many things happened… I barely could cope with THOUSANDS matters happen at once… the last few months really proved how cruel the world could be.

Maybe I’m just not yet prepared for carrying such huge burden as to support family financial… I’m soooooo exhausted…

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Anyway… few weeks ago, I wrote something due to BOREDOM at doing my job… I think I would share them with anyone who’d care to notice this blog…

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#1

another hour, let my eyes asleep
be rest in soothing light, blinded
arrest my soul, deep to last
for every drip of blood, fainted

it’s been a while, we’re counting
click by click take us to the final
so here it comes, we bid farewell
we’ll awake one day in rotting corpse

(ayo tebak… situasi macam apa yg menginspirasi gw untuk menulis sampah ini?)
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#2

why don’t you slit my throat?
drown dying to breath
flood by my own blood

so this is how I die…
when I open my legs,
… and it’s not wide enough

(tebak lagi…  kenapa pikiran gw jorok begini?)
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hahahahahaha!!! semoga makkuw tidak membacanya… pasti dia akan pengsan kalo tau anaknya bisa punya koleksi vocabulary ajaib begini…

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